this is it

yeiz, i guess this is [really is :)] it, a week from now it's to set foot back in Manila for good. i've heard questions one too many of whether i've thought things over and really felt that i've exhausted things here in KL first. truthfully, if i were to be logical, i wouldn't have. yet, Aquarians despite our notoriety for always being intellectual, we do decide on emotions too. and in this case, it's true, it was more of my heart overruling reason. how and why? to answer that will make me uneasy. which is good, for a moment of unknowing is bliss.

i am big on signs, yet in this case, i didn't look for one. perhaps i owe it big time to most of the books i've been reading lately--The Alchemist, The Passion Test, Master Your Destiny--to name a few. this time around, i was the one making the path, flickering the lights. i guess some will say i stopped waiting for things to happen? i guess so.

for all these years, i've never felt a certain emotion that things can be created. that i can rely solely on my own, seek my own purpose, and believe in whatever i have that things, can rightfully be mine. i hope i don't speak Greek to some.

anyhow, it's with a prayer that i look forward to the horizon seeing not the sunset, but a never ending sunrise. not just for me, but for the people i treasure.

i love my life-